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Saturday, December 25, 2010

Mày như cứt  ấy Na ạ, thối  lắm.

Con người ta hơn nhau ở cái bản lĩnh. Mày đã quyết định rồi thế mà phút chót lại lung lay vì lời nói của kẻ khác ư. Nói thì rất hay, đến lúc làm thì lại run sợ. Phải tin vào bản thân chứ, tao biết mày là đứa rất mạnh mẽ, và đó cũng là điều giúp mày sống được đến ngày hôm nay mà.


Nhưng tao sợ lắm. Quyết định của tao có ảnh hưởng đến tất cả gia đình tao. Làm sao tao có thể sống nổi khi biết gia đình sẽ phải khốn đốn vì quyết định sai lầm của mình. Tao cảm thấy rất mơ hồ với lựa chọn của mình.


Tin tao đi, mày không mơ hồ đâu. Mày có nội lực mạnh mẽ và hơn ai hết mày biết mày đang làm gì mà, mày luôn suy xét cẩn thận bất cứ điều gì mày muốn làm mà, và thực sự mày đã nghiên nhứu rất kỹ về điều này rồi. Mày luôn tự nói với bản thân rằng mày không phải đứa hồ đồ mà, và tao biết đó là sự thực. Hãy tin vào bản thân Na ơi. mày thiếu tự tin vào bản thân một cách trầm trọng. Tao biết mày đã cố hết sức rồi, mày đã tìm hiểu rất kỹ về vấn đề này rồi mà, thậm chí con tim mày cũng mách bảo đó là lựa chọn của đời mày mà. sao giờ phải đắn đo.

cố lên Na ơi. mạnh mẽ lên. mạnh mẽ lên. Thời gian vừa qua mày đã làm đc rất nhiều điều tuyệt vời, không ít người đã tỏ ra ngưỡng mộ những điều mày đã làm, mày đã nhận không ít những lời khen ngơi. và hơn thế cả, đó là ngày càng có nhiều người yêu mến mày hơn, quan tâm mày hơn, đó không phải là dấu hiệu tốt hay sao. Những thành công nho nhỏ này chẳng phải đến từ những nỗ lực của bản thân hay sao, và tất cả đều là thành quả của những bước đi chậm nhưng chắc, từ những suy xét trước sau cẩn thận của mày đó Na ơi. 

Tin ở bản thân nhé Na ơi, Hãy tự tin lên.

Friday, December 24, 2010

What have you reveiced this Christmas?

This the first time in my life i have heard someone said they are proud to know me. That's the greatest Christmas present a simple girl could ask for. thank you my friend. you have made my day.

Thursday, December 9, 2010

I have no idea why people keep  acting like shit to me. 

Have I done something wrong? oh well, If I really do, I should at least have the right to know what was that.

Thursday, December 2, 2010

I miss someone I have met only once

That was a small party of travelers and expat in Phnom Penh - Cambodia where I was traveling in November. Nina was talking with 2 other people . everyone else was also chatting and getting to know each other.

I got bored and didn't know what to do.Honestly to say, I was a bit shy and sat lonely on the couch (I'm too bad huh!!?! ). I need something to occupy my self, to show that I totally feel comfortable. then I took my camera out, checked what I have got today and tried to take some picture of the party with no flash (bcause I don't want to take people's attention ) but I failed because my hands keep shaking due to 2 cans of beer and absolutely felt sleepy after that. did I ever say I'm so difficult to get drunk but very easy to fall asleep by alcohol drink? :D okay I will talk about that in another different post.

Then Michal came, sat on the couch and started talking to me in a very gentle way. ( Yeah We did get to know each other before) Hey. What are you doing? you taking photo? can I see it? blah blah blah ...I became more open and talked to him spontaneously. I'm not the type of girl who's too shy or too difficult to talk to . did have a good short talk with him. And ...

... Another guy approach and sat next to me. I forgot his name and only remember he's from USA, so just call him Mr.USA

Mr.USA was eating noodle and invited me to try it. Except from the thing he interrupted my conversation with Michal, he's a very interesting guy with lots of story about his traveling experience to tell. He's also quite handsome, funny and know how to attract others attention. That was actually a dilemma for me when 3 people were all sitting on the same couch. I want to continue talking with M. but Mr USA was more talk-active than M. He soon took control the conversation, constantly asked me new questions and somehow it made M feels ignored. He stood up and made a gesture to me that he's going to get more beer. But he did not come back again.

We had a chance to meet again, but hilariously, it was all the same : me - M - Mr.USA . And it eventually turned out with M left the conversation first and talked with some other guys.

We stayed very late and all went to night club. We danced and said nothing. and obviously, nothing more happened.

I now backed to my country, M's still working in Cambodia as a consultant and nothing connects between us. nothing! I know Nina will still join the party every weekend and maybe he will as well. And I can ask Nina do something for me. but I just can't do that....

I took some pictures while we were in the club and luckily got M's face inside the frame. he's not so handsome, honestly.... hehehe.


Wednesday, October 13, 2010

I hurt myself today, to see if I still feel

I found tears in my eyes, just right after he said goodbye last night.

that's our conversation, glacial and indifferent, as usual... No one wants to show their real emotion and do their best to hide it away.

sometimes this hurts.... hurts so bad.

He said he's gonna marry at year's end. that seems to be too fast as I have never heard he has new gf. oh well He have never told me he has gf since we know each other , since  he started his cruel game.

I have no idea how I felt when I heard that, happy? sad? I don't know. really don't know. the only think left is something collapsed inside me.

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I remember a song of Johnny Cash. please listen to it if you read this post. 


Wednesday, September 22, 2010

don't tell God how big your problem are, tell your problem how big your God is

No ,it's okay, I'm not mad at you.... :) jst wanna threw a chair at your face :):):)

Never allow someone to be your priority while you are jst their option

Sunday, September 5, 2010

Okay. I can be crazy but you are neurotic nut.

Saturday, September 4, 2010


I'm setting up an online shop for clothing an accessories, well... mainly clothing. It doesn't require too much money which I'm not so proud to say I'm very short of. So, the idea goes, I'll sell something in the internet. Why not? just try whatever in our reach, maybe I'll be a millionaire oneday, or even a billionaire, who knows???

As I said before, it doesn't ask too much elements.  needs a good taste in fashion, a nice model and good photography skill or some tricks to make a photograph looks more inviting (I'm quite confident at the last part).

well let's see how things goes.hope it will not lead me to bankruptcy.

Hope so. believe so. try the best. do the best.ever try. ever fail.try again. fail again. fail better. never give up.aiya aiya. 

Friday, August 27, 2010

"Being single used to mean that nobody wanted you. Now it means you're pretty sexy and you're taking your time deciding how you want your life to be and who you want to spend it with."

Thursday, July 15, 2010

BITCH

-Do you promise not to laugh?

-No.

Saturday, July 10, 2010

There was no fun on my birthday.

Not at all.

Friday, July 9, 2010

DISGUST

I know the day would come. and it really did.

Always telling my self,be careful - yes, it have never been a redundant advice.
Today he ruin my day. He just make me disgusted
I shouted, stop it, are you insane?
Tears keep falling down.I don't want to but how could I stop it.
maybe crying would make me stronger.

Steady as the rain by Dolly Parton.

Raindrops tumble to the ground
Making puddles all around
Drops of rain that look like tears
Fall on my window pane

Raindrops seem to harmonize
With teardrops falling from my eyes
And my tears keep falling down
As steady as the rain

Steady as the rain they fall
Tears that just won't dry at all
Tears that cannot wash away the pain
Sometimes without knowing it
I touch my face and find it wet
And my tears keep falling down
As steady as the rain

I can't face the fact that
I am not important in your life
Once you lived for rollin' me
And then your feelings changed
There's just no gettin' over you
I try so hard, but it's no use
And my tears keep falling down
As steady as the rain

Raindrops just keep falling down
Beatin' out their rhythmic sounds
Dancin' as they play their sweet refrain
Memories of you cloud my mind
Cloud my eyes and I start cryin'
And my tears keep falling down
As steady as the rain
As steady as the rain

Steady as the rain they fall
Tears that just won't dry at all
Tears that just won't wash away the pain
Memories of you cloud my mind
Cloud my eyes and I start cryin'
And my tears keep falling down
As steady as the rain
As steady as the rain

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Sick




Help.
I'm not well.
Feel fucking nauseated.

Sunday, July 4, 2010

Monday, June 14, 2010

LOSER

- ...Sometimes you have to believe what you are doing is the right thing.

- What if I can't?

- you will get lost.

yes, I'm lost. I'm lost right in my own plan.

Saturday, May 29, 2010

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.

Thursday, May 27, 2010

I bet there must have something wrong in this chick's mind.
Sometimes she assume that she's beautiful and start taking this kind of photo.













please, someone, please
wake her up

SELF COMFORT

Hey girl , you are not fatttttttt
You are curve!

haha, that's enough

Thursday, May 20, 2010

When I get rid of all the shitty stuffs I am stucking in,I'll lay on my couch,eat popcorn and watch Puca on Disney Channel

Sunday, May 16, 2010

Last night, a friend of mine drove me home from the late party night.Yay, a guy - a quite good looking guy ;) :D.
I bet my parents would burst out crying for joy if they known this.I have been single for few years back and they probably began to think there's something wrong to me

Mom,dad, I'm so sorry.It's not I don't want to have someone beside.
It's just that the world is full of gay.